About 3 years ago a friend of mine and I checked out a spin class around the corner from my work. I will be the first to tell you fitness was not as important to me then as it is now, although I was in denial about that at the time. I mean, sure, I wanted to be skinny, but I really didn't want to try THAT hard to accomplish it. Suffice it to say, my world got rocked. I pushed my way through the class, not having any idea what I had gotten myself into, my body wasn't ready, which was evidenced by the way that I struggled to walk the next few days, but truthfully, my mind was the bigger problem. I was not in a place to push myself and I had some healing to do. Regardless, my stubborn nature made me put my foot down and say I would never go back.
About a month ago, that same friend sent me a Groupon to the same Spin studio, and I jumped at the chance to go back and prove to myself I had changed. I wanted to see the progress and be reminded that I have grown both physically and mentally. I have been taking classes there for a few weeks, and while my Groupon is almost gone, I am really proud to say I am enjoying it and really getting into the victory of charging at something that once felt impossible. The class is definitely not easy, and I love that I am up for it.
I want this to be an encouragement to you. Sometimes we bite off more than we can chew. Sometimes we don't see the progress for a long time. In my situation, I needed to heal from some hurt and I really didn't feel capable of much professionally, personally or physically. Since that time I have grown in all of those areas of my life and genuinely feel like a more complete person. Give yourself grace and try to get to the bottom of why you are feeling the way that you are. I had to really dig in, and I found success in a lot of ways.