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The Truth Comes Out - Confessing Frustration


Sometimes lately, for no reason at all, I just want to scream.  I want to run around like a child and stomp my feet and scream because life is hard and overwhelming and a lot more work than we can possibly imagine and I do not even have kids or financial struggles or any real problems.  I assume I am not alone, but I also feel like everyone is afraid to admit it.  Like, if they ignore it, their desire to lose control and punch a wall will go away.  We all experience frustration, and sometimes I think it is healthy to just scream.  

Sure, running has been a tension releasing outlet, but sometimes you just need to let it out in a silly, ridiculous, 5 year old having a temper tantrum way.  I don't have control, and I am learning to accept that.  I wish I could tell you I scream on a regular basis, but I fit in with the millions putting on a show and not wanting to break down in front of those that matter most to them.

However, after this post is published, feel free to unashamedly scream around me, because it will provide me the freedom to do it too :)  If I am honest, it might even relieve me of the need to because my frustrations are so insignificant compared to others around me.  

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