Thursday, May 30, 2013

C'est La Vie - Life is Beautiful

I think Life is Beautiful.

Even the messy parts.

We need to learn to embrace the mess and just jump right in.  

See the beauty in the simple things around us.

To literally stop and smell the sunflowers, ya know?  Like dive head first into a sunflower... and take the deepest of breaths.  

I want to challenge each person who reads my words to do something you want to do today - be spontaneous, whether it is smell a flower, start your own blog, or run through a field and scream at the top of your lungs.

Stop being afraid of vulnerability.

Find your own freedom. 

Go the long way home.

Take your time. 

We all have different things that make us feel free, but DO NOT let fear or (especially) insecurity hold you back.  

I am not sure where this passion is coming from, but it's here and I love it, so I am going with it.  I am planning on reading a book about Tuscany this week and painting in the park by my house.  Are you kidding me!?!  What an incredible opportunity it is to just exist.  

Life is beautiful.  Believe that.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

List Love - Updates and Understanding

I have started and stopped typing this blog about 3 times.  I am just not sure what I want to say.  Here is what I have decided... I have a few updates for you and I will tackle them one at a time.  I really like lists, so this approach is making me SO happy!  I think I will make it a theme for the future... because I can do whatever I want on here :)

1.  I have been studying really hard for my Real Estate Licensing exam for the last 6 weeks and have taken a step back from the world.  Honestly, its been great for me to work towards something and learn how much I doubt my own mind.  I have learned that I need to make strides towards faith in my own abilities.  

2. I passed!  I took the exam and I passed!  Gosh, the weight that is off my shoulders is absolutely incredible.  Even though everyone in my life believed I would pass on the first try, I had my doubts.  Why do we doubt what others can clearly see?  I have felt the burden on my heart to start attempting to see myself as others see me, and it is beginning to set me free to seeing the world differently.  

3. I had the most incredible trip home.  I had quality time with my parents, each of my siblings and both my brother's wonderful significant others as well as my brand new niece (although I didn't change a diaper).  This trip was relaxing and I felt the reason for that was that it was the first time we all treated each other as adults and respected who we have become.  It is so easy to revert back and make assumptions about how the others will react, but it is another thing to let people be who they currently are.  I learned so much from each of these people on this trip and it made my heart soar.  Oh, and I love Ryleigh (my new niece) with my whole heart.  I will most likely follow up with some blog posts to highlight a few specific events from my trip home, but just know it filled up a piece of me that was aching in only a way my family can.

4. I could not have wished for a better man for a husband.  He is so incredible and sent straight from God to me.  Seriously, the people who make backhanded jokes about how awful marriage is, have never done it right, because I love being married.  He makes me feel more loved than I can even comprehend.  Sigh, marriage is designed to be a team and by gosh my teammate is SO incredible.

5. I miss some dear friends a lot.  We know people all across this country, and we recently had a visit from some dear friends from Chicago - it just never feels long enough.  To all our friends spread across this beautiful country, we miss you greatly and wish we could move to where each of you live.  

For now... this is my update.  

The beauty of this blog is I can continue to update you as life happens.  I have lots of exciting things coming up, and I am looking forward to sharing them with you all.  Writing is a passion I am planning to embrace again.  

Monday, May 6, 2013

A Penny For Your Thoughts - Rain and Musings

As the rain falls outside my loft apartment in the heart of a town I have come to love, I cannot help but be giddy with excitement.  This life is what I wanted and prayed for.

I have been reading a lot about issues being caused by people facebooking, instagraming, and blogging abut their perfect lives, when their reality is not perfect.  However, I am here to tell you I am taking a grip on my reality and I have found some perfect elements.  Sure, I miss my family that lives 3000 miles away and I wish I had the finances to travel to Italy at a moment's notice, but I think I can count my blessings and not be depressing about the things in my life that I wish I could change.  

I don't need to make you a list of all the great things in my life, because we all have our own lists.  I just want to encourage you to focus on the beautiful world.  Sure, we each have crappy days and think... she is annoying... but if we are honest with ourselves and each other we all have guilty pleasures that no one can take away from us.  The smell in the air when it snows is one of mine.  I also LOVE little tiny wild purple flowers.  Oh, and don't even get me started on barefeet and sweatpants...

I have so much in my heart to share, and I can't wait to do so, but I have also found that putting pressure on myself to type it out is not ALWAYS my best form of processing.  So, for now, I will sit and listen to the rain and continue to process this internal dialogue of thankfulness and awareness.  I will never have a perfect job or perfect friends or perfect family, but I have a perfect savior and he created some amazing things and I can cling to the beauty that surrounds me no matter where I am.  Simplicity is all I strive for today.

Tonight's smiles will most likely be caused by a warm cup of tea, a smiling husband, and the sweet potato fries baking in the oven.  Enjoy your moments, and do not get hung up on what you cannot change.  It will set you free :)