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A Penny For Your Thoughts - My Boy & Our Big Day Stress

Alright people, I know you think I should be more stressed out and completely out of my mind.  My wedding is less than 3 months away, and while delegation has been my best friend for a cross country wedding, I think what is most important is the mindset I have adopted over the course of this journey.  Not just a journey to a wedding, but a journey to join my life with Bills.

Our wedding will be wonderful.  Lights strung overhead, a dress I feel perfect in, an amazing man in a dapper suit, friends and family all around, wine, pizza, music, paper lanterns, and so much other wonderfulness.  However, what I am looking forward to is waking up and seeing Bill every morning.  I am looking forward to growing old with him and watching him succeed in every way.  I can't wait to cook him bacon and leave him little notes.  I get so excited knowing I can hug him everyday.  I am looking forward to that laugh and smile that only he has for the rest of my life.

There is no stress when I picture his face.  I cannot help but remember how much I love him and how God sent him to me to calm my heart and bring me peace in the most chaotic of circumstances.  Sure, I am often overwhelmed by all the decisions that I have to make and all the work that needs to be done.  The wedding to-do list seems to only grow.  However, when I come back to home base and remember what the point of it all is, I do not even bat an eyelash.  He is someone I am proud to be with and someone I love being around.  He is generous and caring and gracious and a man of faith.  He is learning what each of those things means more and more every day, but it is all over him.  I love who he is deep down and on the surface.

I can't wait to dance with him, promise him forever, and celebrate with people we love at our wedding, but more than that I can't wait to invite people into our home, show people love that they never expected, and be the best team we can be.

Bill my dear, you are it for me.  I cannot wait to marry you and to be your girl forever. 

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