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It's Out Of My Hands - A Journey Of Sweet Faith


I wish that people could see the world through my eyes sometimes, because then they would understand my heart better.   I love traveling and seeing new places, but even just the idea of an adventure makes me happy.  I am thrilled to just sit around thinking of all the places I want to go and people I want to see.  Tea or curry or chocolate from a foreign land makes me feel like I am on a trip in my own home.  I love knowing these wonderful places exist, and I love planning on going to see them; but if I never make it and just live in a sweet house with Bill and have dinner with our family and friends, and work hard and live basked in simplicity, and invest whole heartedly in relationships, it will be over and abundantly enough.

The world is big and often times overwhelming, and I want to explore it, but it is all nothing without those you love.  I am sure in my time, Thailand will not be the last place I visit apart from my hometown and Bill’s.  I know that I will probably be privileged enough to go on lots of trips and board many a plane and eat tons of crazy food and get lost in a few places.  When I see items like these pictured from World Market, I feel rejuvenated.  Why? You might ask…  Well, maps symbolize the open end to a journey, there is always somewhere else to explore.  Who knows where God is going to take Bill and I!  The possibilities are literally endless.  I love that. 

I love that the plan is out of my hands.  I tend to want control everything and always know what is coming next, but my renewed outlook is taking the approach of sweet faith in God and not trying to make things happen.  As Bill and I get closer and closer to marriage (10 weeks!) and living under the same roof, I am trusting that God has designed us for each other.  While I am aware it is going to be work, I am also aware that my best friend will be on this journey with me in a deeper way.  God has brought us each wonderful friends to go to for affirmation or constructive criticism.  We are so blessed.

Our journey will be one where when we look back, we marvel at where we have come from.  I am sure we will go through all kinds of seasons of change.  I am so excited to travel through this life with Bill, but even more to journey with God between us.  He guides our steps and designs out paths and I can’t wait to see where he leads us!


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  1. Um, those pictures are epic. and wonderful words to go with them :) love you!

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