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Getting My Ducks in a Row...

It has been too long since I last blogged.  I literally find my fingers itching to run across the keyboard and type words to you precious people.  I hope no one lost hope in my blogging love.  I hope no one stopped reading who was faithfully doing so.  My life the last few weeks feels like a blur.  I have been up at 5 and in bed very early.  I have dear friends who got married, holidays have come and gone, and family remains dear to my heart.  Through it all, this blog has been in the back of my mind.  Planning posts and what to tell you, but the only words I have today seem to make me realize how important writing is to me.

All this goes to say I have missed you.  Desperately and completely.  This is something I love.  Writing my heart onto this blog has become a piece of me.  Maybe it is silly to love it, but I do all the same, and I hope you can enjoy it along with me.

Just a few updates for you to help you know what you missed, and you can bet on posts for some of these in the coming days!

My dear friends James and Ashley got married, and their wedding was so lovely.  She looked absolutely beautiful, and the words he spoke to her during the ceremony brought tears in my eyes.  What a wonderful couple they are!  Little birds, wonderful letters, pictures and lights and beautiful fabric.  It really was a perfect night!

You all would be so proud of me.  I am consistently running outside.  The fresh air is changing my life in a huge way.  I cannot run 3 miles straight, but I can come pretty close J  I hope to make it a part of my life and watch a few more pounds fall off of me.  The Color Run is this Sunday, and I cannot wait to report epic pictures and videos to all of you!

My commute is weighing on me a little, and I had a small breakdown this past weekend.  I will adjust, but as for right now, I am feeling constantly tired.  However, I signed up for this and I am learning to suck it up and work through the exhaustion.  It gets easier with each passing day.  There are small reminders in the morning that God provided this for me, and that consistency in staying in what I believe is his will for my path right now will be rewarding in the end.

Sorry there are no pictures or fun anecdotes on my first day back, I just had to tell you all of my love for you and that I missed you.  I am sure I will write again soon and hopefully even have one posted tomorrow.  Getting all your ducks in a row is tough huh?  I have decided to take it one day at a time.  Thanks for reading!

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